• Nothing But Taste

    2008-03-19

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    最近比较闲,闲得在网上闲逛。一大收获就是了解了什么样的人才会去天涯铁血之类的地方闲逛,于是毫不犹豫的和他们划清了界限。划清界限之后突然发现没人陪我玩了,去新浪看金刚的体育贴被人看到有损形象,去水源装嫩明显不符合偶的过来人身份。思来想去也就是豆瓣+土豆+卓越的组合啦。豆瓣引导俺找到气味相投品味相符的东东,能看的去土豆(非广告哦),字多的去卓越,还算简单。豆瓣去久了突然发现也快成了个潮人。被忽悠着买了本《一个人的好天气》,本要出来骂街,却发现接着这个名字出现在N多以品位自居的地方,居然火了。于是乎不得不...
  •  个人认为RadioHead的风格属于Psychedelic Rock(通常译为迷幻摇滚,原意是指在嗑药状态下创作甚至演出的摇滚乐队)。第一次接触PR还是Pink Floyd的The Wall,电子乐和强烈的政治主张是这张专辑给我的最大印象。唯一可惜的是我晚出生了20年,专辑里面的政治批判对我而言更像是历史录像。但是其中乖张的电子乐,声光的配合以及主唱的嗓音仍旧令人着迷。尤其喜欢唱音中拉长的高音突然降低变调混入电子乐背景音中的感觉,构成了一种亦真亦幻,虚无缥缈的感觉。

    终于在Radiohead的专辑中又找到了的这种感觉。很多人都用病态这个词评价主唱Thom Yorke的嗓音。在我看来倒还远不如此,尤其是比较很多迷幻摇滚乐队,Yorke的嗓音正好同乐队的气质相得益彰。低声吟唱时纤细略带柔弱的嗓音正好清晰的表达被压抑的感觉;而在高潮部分近乎癔症的呼号更是给予了乐队迷...
  •         《生命不能承受之轻》其实是米兰·昆德拉Milan Kundera用母语捷克语写出的一部小说,而我们在国内读到的大多是法语版的翻译作品。法语版的书名是L'insoutenable légèreté de l'être,由于英法语言的类似性,翻译过来就是The unbearable lightness of life,似乎电影《布拉格之恋》用的就是这个名字。而中文版的译名,则是有《生命不能承受之轻》和《不能承受的生命之轻》。其实,这和把big Mercedes-Benz of Jackie翻译成杰基的大奔驰和大号的杰基的奔...
  •       第一次听到“广岛之恋”是在KTV,是一首莫文蔚和张洪亮的经典对唱曲目,好听又容易唱,而且还可以两个人一起唱,自然成了每次K歌的必唱曲目。由于MTV的原因,我想大约会是有一部同名的电影。但也没有深意,因为广岛对于中国人来说,总是个复杂的概念。
          最近在卓越网上淘打折书,忽然看到Marguerite Duras的Hiroshima Mon Amour,正是杜拉斯的“广岛我的爱(?)”。一时冲动就买了下来。
          杜拉斯以小说写作在国内著名,但《广岛之恋》却是一本地地道道的剧本。看剧本对我而言一向没有什么吸引力,小时候读莎翁的著作也不知所以然,只能...
  • Big Fish

    2007-02-11

    Tag:fancy

    I will never know how many times I have that same dream. Summer day, under the shadow of tall trees, I’m walking on a blacktop. Then I really become someone who is always walking. I consider myself to be slightly noted as peregrinator, though I haven’t much experience of places far away.

    But I do remember when I was a boy in primary school; I was that kind of children that my parents even forced me to go out because they didn’t want a son who never went out of the gate of house.

    Soon enough, that scene flame disappeared; I’m grown up, as tall as my father. Once I was aggressive, I saw too much from my father that disappointing me. He was not cool at all. I just like the son in movie Big Fish, wondering why I was his son. He could spend whole day in home while I liked more excited life style, although when I successful glided out, I always couldn’t find thing really attracting me. But I was content because I thought at least I had tried.

    Father always has plan, just like me always in lash-up. He found time to talk with me; he was reasonable and dared to admit failure. He was just as great as most of fathers.

    Suddenly I write something about my father, just before the start of another travel. In fact I could feel the lonely and baldness of travel, as well as the amazing view and curiosity which will be fulfilled by uncertainty. But you have to try, you have to go on. Because now you know you have someone who will support you mentally and physically without any hesitation for ever. You might be your own when you are on the road; and all the sensory organs are sharper.

    So let’s talk about travel. People always say: life is like journey. Yes, journey itself does have a meaning of life. Life is beautiful because you will never know what will happened at next second. Just like a tour, in fact you are most likely to feel disappointing when you actually see the view of destination by you own eyes. It’s too damned realism. All the fantasies about it have been destroyed barbarous, just like you could see exactly how you will die though hellish witch’s eye. So let’s treasure today, the same as treasure the process from departing to destination. The happy time for me is always with family and friend, because I hate the feeling of empty. It’s terrible to know when and how you will die, but then you know before that you are real superman.

    A really peregrinator must have a home, have someone in his or her mind. Once you leave this home, you just know you will come back for sure. Without a home, one becomes a wanderer. Soon enough it will be only a view of his back, gradually dissolve.

    I just finish watching the movie Big Fish for another time; I can’t help from thinking about my father, myself and friends. Sometimes when everything is reasonable and could be explained so good, I just feel a bit lost. I’m the one waiting magic and always with face up in order to see the stars in the dark sky. Because there, is something out of control and couldn’t be explained. Just like Bloom, half true and half fake. But it’s not important any longer for this, he became a legend and he know the way to deal with the life.

  • 终于看到了007系列的第21部。还没有问世,仅是男主角的更换就早已引起轩然大波,这在007的历史上应该也是罕见的。不知不觉,007系列已经拍了20部。即使在中国,“邦。詹姆是·邦”也变成了一句众所周知的台词。很多人把007的成功归功于曾经的切合时代环境,所以如今的没落也是由于世界格局的变化。所谓成也萧何,败也萧何,007的诞生始终离不开政治。
    我想这只是一个原因,007更多的是男人心目中的一个梦想。英俊潇洒、香车美女、很酷的小玩意、摆脱一成不变的生活、冒险,这才是这部电影的真谛。而007成为女性朋友又恨又爱的典型,自然也不难理解。看007,就像做一个美梦,或者是过去成功经历的浓缩。
    我很喜欢一句话——“记住,你的确是独一无二的,就像所有其他人一样。”从英俊潇洒的皮尔斯·布鲁斯南到略显木讷的丹尼斯·克雷格,就是回归的一种代表。也许忠诚的影迷会说,克雷格是第一个金发的007,就这一点就明显不忠于原著。而我要说的是,克雷格在影片中的表现更接近于现实。一个特工,张着一张让人过目不忘的帅脸,本身就是很不可思议的一件事情。而007的剧本也是一部惊险的间谍故事,而不是诸如蝙蝠侠之类的怪力乱神之类的东东。那么,把原本那个像神一样的完美男人塑造得更加有血有肉,更加合乎现实又有什么不好?
    其实是否有自信之所以不是成功男人的一个充分条件只是因为结果的不同。同样很多人很有自信,有些人用结果证实了自己的自信,那他就是成功男人;有些人最后没成功,就是不自量力的男人。所有的故事就这么简单。So a good man is someone who is able to handle.
    本片的开头实际上并没有什么新意。像蜘蛛侠一样的跳跃追逐和惊险打斗都算不上最佳,真正要我感兴趣的是后来的剧情,007的失手,女主角的拒绝和陷入真情。其实从上一部《择日而亡》中007被困朝鲜开始,似乎编剧就开始考虑让007走下神坛,不再是一个有致命吸引力却毫无真实感情的怪物,或者是输入了作弊密码后游戏中一个刀枪不入弹药无数的角色。
    唯一可惜的是结尾略显冗长,似乎是一波四折了。其实007和女主角找到真爱,退隐共度余生不也挺好的嘛。有这个观点看来我也老了:P
  • Pressure

    2006-10-16

    Pressure suddenly comes. I have again waste too much time? But the result is always the same. So many things mixed together and so many people are pushing me. I just feel overwhelming.

    La vie est belle? I don’t know. I just know my currently life is not so much splendor. But I have a question always, the reason for that is because I’m not working hard enough or I have made wrong choice. I haven’t slept well for the so weekend and I don’t want wake up today in the morning. If life is like this, still should I carry on?

    Yes, I have to depend on myself; yes, I need a career. But God please tell me if I could find a job that I really love? If I still the one who is always with passion and lucky?

    Many days pasts, can you still heal my calls as before? I’m waiting for magic. I’m trying my best. I’m watching and will decide.

  • 又到了一年中说再见的时候.喝的烂醉抱头痛哭了;在再熟悉不过的校园道路上游行,大喊每个想到的女生的名字;最后看一眼自己的宿舍楼;在同学的衣服上签名,用力的最后一次.突然间,这些回忆又到了眼前,挥之不去,成了我自己的一部分.
    真正的离别伤感也许不在于轰轰烈烈的告别,而在于意识到从此再也不能共享一个寝室,一起逃课,一起大谈幻想的事实.记得大一第一次忐忑的走进寝室,第一次好奇的打量未来的室友和同学,到军训的初识,再到后来的无所不知无所不谈,4年的时间一眨眼就过去.从目空一切的天真少年到初识社会的成人,我们一起渡过.尽管很轻,尽管很涩,甚至很颓废,但是却很快乐.幻想着自己的未来,寻找的自己的梦想.从来不会真正绝望,因为知道自己还很年轻.
    突然间,毕业了.再也不属于这所学校,再也没有自己的寝室.看着同学一个个收拾行李,知道最后一刻终究要到来.习惯于看着每个假期的人来来往往,却不习惯这次的诀别.
    总想写点东西纪念自己的大学时代,如春梦一般,也许荒唐,却无比生动.也想把这些文字献给我的朋友,一同经历过那些也许平常但弥足珍贵的故事.四年到了,梦醒了,发现自己走了出来,只有一张若有若无的文凭和永远抹不掉的交大人的骄傲.
    工作了,梦也少了.爸妈都说我比过去成熟多了.可他们不知道,我讨厌自己变得成熟,我宁愿自己是个凯子--只要是个有梦想的,不知天高地厚的,单纯的傻瓜就好.
    但是,总有一天,我要养活自己,要对自己负责.也许这就是成长的代价吧.
    至今都没看过Vos的晚会,我真的会受不了.毕业了,大家说好谁都不许伤心,大家许诺会常常聚会,就像以前一样.可是,又有谁能做到?当一个人的时候,总会想到过去的你们;当遇到讨厌的人的时候,总会想念过去的你们.每当听到交大,总会有种激动。
    罢了罢了,人总要向前看.十年之后再见,希望谁都不会后悔.那么,橡皮筋的朋友们,你们还好吗?我们再来一次聚会,怎么样?
  • Dear you...

    2006-06-07

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    Dear you,

     

    How are you recently? Still fighting for the dream which you have referred to me? You should know that I really love it. And are you still wondering at yourself at your leisure? But please don’t ask my opinion; you know I never know you.

    Day after day, I want to find way to say something to you, only when I’m lonely. Is that snobbish? I don’t know. Then have you ever want to say something to me? anything?

    You know I like digging in my memories, then I become someone who hardly grow up, a fool who believe that he is able to against the nature. Do you still find sense in this behavior as before? Maybe it’s time to show your hand. I’m bigger anyhow.

    But as I said, life is stories, fulfilled by experience. We made the history of ourselves. The day, you came into my life, and our lives had an intersection since then, forever.

    Now you might know my feeling. I would like to ask “And you?” as usual. I see the moon raising, just like that day, you know? But today is not raining, and we are not there. Your eyes are on the photo in front of my face, but so far away to feel.

    Hey you, you should never receive this letter, cause I would never send it out. I’m told too much and I’m still no change. So let’s say: “Never say Never”.

     

    Sincerely yours,

    J

  • 生日快乐!

    2006-06-05

    Tag:vision
      很巧就在今天——你的生日,想起要看一看自己的blog。
  • Encore une fois

    2006-03-30

    Tag:

    J'ai jamais vu d'amour fragile
    I have never seen such fragile love
    j'ai toujours donne tout
    I have been always giving all
    toute seule au bout de moi
    tatally lonely on my side

    j't'envoie ces quelques mots
    I send you these few words
    Moi je suis celle qui s'est perdue
    Me, I’m therefore only losing myself

    contre ta peau
    Against your skin
    quand on s'cachait pres des bateaux

    When we hide ourselves behind boats 
    pour mettr'nos corps a nu
    We lay our nude bodies together
    Un jour y'a comme ca des gens qui passent
    One day, like those people passing
    c'est la vie qui grandit
    That’s life which is growing 
    on s'comprend pas toujours soi-même
    we can never know ourselves
    et un jour
    until one day
    on aime  

    In love…

     

     

    {Refrain:}
    Oh non non non
    Oh no no no
    On s'oublie pas comme ca
    we can’t forget each other like this
    Tu n'le sais pas
    You don’t realize this
    Mais j'garde en moi des bouts de toi
    But I keep your part in mine
    Oh Non non non
    Oh no no no
    On n'oublie pas tout ca
    We won’t forget in this way
    C'est notre histoire d'amour
    This is our story of love
    J'voudrai la vivre encore une fois
    I wish the life could go once again
    Et face aux vagues de l'ocean
    When facing the waves of the ocean
    tu m'as tendue la main
    You spreaded your hand towards me
    pour m'emmener doucement
    for holding mine tenderly
    jusqu'au premier matin
    until the another first morning
    J'avancais toujours vers toi
    I was walking towards you

    comme une etoile qui danse
    like a star dancing
    et le ciel a mis ses ailes
    and the sky opens its wings
    pour me voler mon innocence
    for my innocence flying

    Un jour y'a comme ca des gens qui passent
    One day, like those people passing
    des regards qu'on garde en soi
    the regards when we stare each other
    des rires qu'on oublie pas
    the smile that we never forget 
    parce qu'un jour
    since on certain day
    on aime
    in love 

     

    {au Refrain}
    Un jour y'a comme ca des gnes qui passent
    One day, like those people passing

    c'est la vie qui grandit
    That’s life which is growing
    on s'comprend pas toujours soi-même
    we can never know ourselves
    et un jour
    until one day
    on aime...
    in love

  •     周日,闲来无事,睡到10点起床的副作用就是接下来几个小时都还是迷迷糊糊的,真的有点super nature的感觉了。吃过午饭,坐上一路陌生的巴士,开始继续我的寻宝之旅。
        很久以来都觉得自己有点恋旧工厂癖(居然打出字来这么夸张)。每次看到水泥原色的墙壁,高高的黑色烟囱,落满灰尘带着破洞的一排排的窗户,以及总是伴随这些出现的煤堆和荒废的货车铁轨时,总有一种熟悉的感觉。也许是小时候是在工厂的家属区长大的缘故。公共汽车驶出了市区,本来还满满的一车人不知不觉地变成了司机和我。汽车开始在一片工业区中穿行,我也早早告诉司机我的目的地,然后开始自得其乐的望着窗外熟悉又陌生的情景。爬着死去藤蔓的围墙上漏出后排平方的屋顶,铁大门上的锁应该已经锈死,墙上沾满了粉尘免得更加暗淡,只有门卫室里的老人还带着眼睛,不时把目光从报纸移到外面的路上,还是那个词——Super nature.
        印象里Sputnik老是念叨一句话——“活到XX岁,突然觉得自己活得像个提线木偶。”怪事,活到XX岁,突然感觉我们像一群连在一起的提线木偶——分不开了。好像有的团体,一旦加入就再也无法退出。时间应该过去了许久,快乐的时候也不会再想起。然而每当安静下来,总会觉得少了什么,然后会知道——少了什么。
        老工厂在我的心中早已定格成了明信片一样的风景画——可以在新年的时候送人的那种,简单又不流俗,只是一种感觉,尽在朦胧的色调和似有似无的香味中不可深究,旋即随着周边的模糊散去。我的过去又何尝不是如此?所以,每当听到其他木偶的声音,我还是会笑。在远处的你,是不是很忙?所以我担心一个电话会打扰到你。但如果你也恰好有时间,你也想聊聊——请一定要让我知道。
  • Be a confessor, honest

    2005-12-05

    Tag:
    -How are you recently?
    -I'm Fine, a bit humdrum.
     
    Time passes quickly. It seems to be in one night's time, summer of year 2005 left forever without saing adieu. Sometimes I hate the climate here, so gently and peacefully, killing my youth.
    Last time went to SJTU, same dorm building but covered by new colour, did that mean my days here passed forever? While I saw gaga students everywhere, just like me. But though I tried desperately, I never found my face.
    I wonder that I have a golden automne, or a chilly winter. But I believe that I deserve the result anyway. It has been a tough change from School to supporting myself, till now, I'm a bit lost. But I know I do something right and do something wrongly. I treate someone unfairly and ignore someone without reason. I guess I must be more open and honest to others, life itself is simple and will be full of joy. Moreover, I have only one chance to live, happy or not, I will still use it. It's miserable to spent time on censuring others, or worse, counting others' co called scurviness secretly. Life is far more than that. Life is giving and forgiveness, also appreciation. Beyond my narrow selfishness, there are so much unlimited hope.
    Today, now, is a wholly and holy new begining. Thanks freer, you're always right and wiser than me. To be honest and open, it's a basic request to me and I'll try to satisfy.
  • 飘·感恩节

    2005-11-27

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    一晃好久,Blog也清静了许多。当写Blog变成一项任务,而不是一种抒发的时候,似乎于我而言Blog已经失去了意义。总是被这样那样的要求,自己总不至于再给自己找点麻烦吧。
     
    不知不觉在别人眼中变成了飘一族,东游西逛居无定所,似乎也不算什么特别好的评价,不过既已得名,不妨认过了。只是坦荡可以是一种洒脱,也可以是一种无奈,或者两者皆有。
     
    真的很感激熟识的和素不相识的朋友花费时间来浏览这里,尽管我不能完全因为评论而改变或是最基本的真实地描述自己,抑或是考虑到别人阅读的方便而删除冗长的句式,但我还是要感激阅读的人,分享我的快乐与忧伤。
     
    感恩节,是我们从内心感受到别人的善意、理解和帮助的时候;是我们体会到爱的伟大力量的时刻;是我们反省自己,决心更好的善待他人,回馈社会的时候。感恩节其实很简单,很单纯,就像因果报应一般实际;但又可能超出个人的狭隘,变成大众的和谐。
     
    感谢很多人,从父母到朋友,从对手到敌人,是你们构成了真实的世界,不完美却唯一,值得珍藏的经历和回忆。
  •       很多时候自我解嘲地说四年大学的一半意义在于听了不少音乐,另一半在于看了不少电影。不管怎么说,每当看到电脑里将近10G的音乐文件,还是禁不住有种暗暗的成就感。
          刚入大学时还浸淫在男孩团体甜甜的嗓音和优美的和声中,努力的向室友们推荐BSB和WESTLIFE的专辑,尽管收效甚微,倒也自以为不落伍。这是Bono同学适时出现,将Simon&Garfunkel推荐给了当时尚且涉世不深的我。尽管知道Scarborough fair的歌词的深意起码是几个月之后的事情,但这却也没影响到我对S&G的热情,所谓有怀旧倾向的人找到了一堆怀旧的歌。还要感谢Atarnis,带我走进吉他的殿堂,尽管我对吉他的热情一如对电子琴、次中音号、萨克斯和小提琴一般,但至少知道了左手按弦右手拨的规矩和尼龙弦同钢丝弦之间的区别,也开始了下载吉他曲的浩大工程。意料之中的找到了Eagle,只是Atarnis只喜欢出神入化Don Felder和Joe Walsh出神入化的双吉他合奏,而我更喜欢Don Henley沙哑的嗓音。看来我比他现实:)
           就我而言,大一的时间其实过的并不是很快,离开家乡上千公里,融入一个全新的环境并不想说的那么简单。当听到黄埔江畔渡轮的汽笛声时,我还会尽力找些声音来弥补之后的空白。我带着男孩团体阳光的专辑来到这里,却喜欢上了S&G和Eagle慢慢诉说的语调。吉他,拨弦的声音在脑海中回响。
           大二是努力追求梦想的一年,那就让我们来做点什么吧。地球的一个小小的角落突然吸引了我几乎全部的注意——英国,更确切的说——爱尔兰。上帝偏爱英国,把如此众多的美景放在这个小小的地方,也把音乐洒在这里。有Westlife,他们的师兄Boyzone和Take That,还有脱俗的Enya,卡百利——尽管至今不欣赏他们的风格,Coldplay......一个理想突然出现在脑海,总有一天要去那里看看,为什么这里的绿草地里会长出来旋律。
           准确地说,最喜欢的还是Boyzone,Westlife,Five和Robbie Williams。简单的旋律,快慢相宜的节奏,成为我的最爱。同时又翻出了Webber大叔的精选辑,既然Boyzone唱红了No Matter What,其他唱曲总是值得欣赏的。我喜欢Webber歌剧的跌宕起伏,运用华丽的乐队和主唱出类拔萃的嗓音,营造出一个又一个金迷纸醉的辉煌。一句话,有气势。
           当你想做点事情的时候,总会发现时机已经过去——选择性记忆。
           我的大二生活亦是如此。
           不知不觉大学过去了一半,突然隐隐感到未来生机的压迫和可能性渐渐失去的失落。什么是表现这种感觉的最好方法?不清楚。如何消除?南美音乐!当爱尔兰音乐更多的像是富含深意、旋律优美的歌词在重复的时候,突然听到了Santana的音乐。一个手鼓,电吉他,西班牙语歌词的杂烩——所谓的拉丁风格。然而拉丁音乐有不可抗拒的优势,她不会容你在一旁静静的欣赏,而是用她的热情拉你入伙,让你忘掉其他,惊叹于在吉他上插一条电线是多么伟大的进步。吵杂的声音和舞动的人群取代了纯净的旋律和整洁的衬衣,也许我的大学生活因此更加纯粹。
          当嘈杂到达了喊叫的时候,摇滚乐来了。最先接触到的应该是Bon Jovi。可惜好景不长,在ChenLiang的不屑声中,我赶忙藏起It's my life之流,让屈从于商业的伪摇滚彻底从系统中消失。摇滚的精神——管他呢?
          接下来是我的最爱——The calling的Wherever you will go。当一天晚上凌晨三点我第一次看Love Actually的时候,恰好听到了Smooth和Wherever you will go接踵而至,然后我就知道,我爱这部片子。
           大三到来,现实逐渐取代了刚入校时的懵懂,突然意识到很多事情在大学将无法完成时,的确是一种可以称得上是痛苦的感觉。突然喜欢上了Rap,在时刻不停的节奏下让愤怒纵横恣睢——尽管我其实没有那么多的愤怒。还看了8 Mile,一部不错的片子,尽管需要时间去理解。
          大四如期而来,听音乐变成了一种逃避和卖弄,或单纯的消遣,如大学时光,一去不返。今天,真的很难再次安静的坐下,去体会什么;更多的是用音乐填充航班的空闲时间。也许是进步,也许是无奈。